Unknowing Suicide

Suicide does not always come in the obvious ways of deliberate overdosing, shooting yourself, our jumping from a bridge or window. Many of us have a had thoughts of suicide but would probably never have the nerve to act upon it. We have moments where we sit back and reflect on the negative things past and present in our lives and become a little depressed about it.The small things in life can cause thoughts of depression, for example some people do not like some of their physical attributes and it causes them shame, hence depression forms. While you have others who feel less than because of their financial status and so forth.

When we as people continue to deal with the daily stresses of life we're going to have some ups and downs. During the process of the downs we have to be able to communicate with someone we trust to keep us encourage. When we don't have a supportive system in place we become depress and that leads to destruction. We go through life doing things that make us feel good not knowing it is probably something bad for us.

Personally for me I was on the verge of suicide, not in the typical sense but indirectly. I began drinking when I was 14 years old, that was the beginning of my self-destruction. I continue that journey for over 20 years, it was destroying my body on the inside. That was not enough so I began to smoke marijuana that was laced with other chemicals to ease what I now know was pain. I continue to live a destructive life but the drinking and the marijuana was not enough so I became very sexually active. The many sex acts and partners I had was also killing me because I was jeopardizing my health with reckless sex with random people. The purpose of me sharing apart of my story is because like many people I was searching for something that was missing in my life. During the search many of us are committing suicide in a slow process by destroying the life the was so preciously and miraculously giving to us by God.

We have to understand why we are doing some of the things that we continue to do that is obviously killing us. Is it because of past abuse or could it be loneliness? We have to identify where we are lacking in our lives to improve our quality of life. As we identify why we have the weaknesses, we can then take the necessary steps to heal. Talk to a preacher, teacher, counselor, or someone who understands. Redemption is possible before your destruction becomes fatal.

Be blessed and encouraged
T.L.Simmons(Tonzae)